Friday, April 27, 2018

April 27, 2011 - Relived

Stacie

They had told us for weeks that storms were coming. That these would be storms like we had never seen. That we should prepare for the worst. Ok, sure. We’d had storms before, they came pretty close, but we had always been spared with nothing more than a few leaves and limbs blown down. Surely this wouldn’t be any different.

The day started as expected. Some rain and thunder and lightning and high winds. Schools were delayed due to the early morning storms. With the “threat” of more storms that afternoon, I decided to keep the kids at home, but I got up and went to work anyway. Once I left the quietness of my home, I quickly realized that we had once again been spared while others close by had been severely affected. When I got to work, the power was out. We took care of a few things that we could, but left soon after, since there’s only so much you can do in an office without a computer or a telephone.

So I went home. The radio was still telling that storms were on the way. It was hard to take seriously at that point. I mean, we still had power at home, the sun was shining. I heard storms had hit Flat Rock, where my mom lives. I tried to call, but got no answer. She finally called me back that afternoon.
“Did you call?
“Yes, are you ok?
“I’m fine. I’m at work. Why?”
“Uh, storms hit Flat Rock this morning. Just making sure your house is still standing.”
“Oh. I haven’t heard anything. I’m sure if something was wrong the neighbor would have called and told me.”
That’s Mama. She was less concerned with storms than I was. Anytime one came up, we’d just take a nap. She did call and confirm that her house was fine.

But it wasn’t long till the sky clouded back up. There were news reports that storms with tornadoes were hitting cities on the other side of the state. Thinking it would be several hours before anything would be near us, we continued our day, occasionally checking to see where the next tornado warning was. Wednesday night church service was cancelled.

About 6:00 p.m. the power went out. Apparently a tornado had hit the TVA power station in Huntsville and knocked out power to all of North Alabama. Eh, ok. They’ll have it back on by morning. We’ll just light some candles, play cards or something, and maybe go to bed early.

I can’t remember if my sister called or sent me a text message telling me a tornado was in Albertville and heading our way. She asked where we were. I checked on my daughter, who was living in Albertville at the time. She was fine she said. I remember my sister telling me I needed to get my son home, since he was next door at my in-law’s house. I got no answer on their phone, so I decided to drive over and get him, just to make my sister feel better I guess. While I was in the car, it dawned on me that I could actually still get the news from the radio in the car. Duh! So we sat out in the yard and listened to the radio...and watched the big black cloud go up Highway 75, a few miles from our house. Whew, it missed us. I text my sister and told her we were all ok.

•     •     •     •     •

Melissa

I’m pretty sure my cable was out by then, so I was on the computer checking radar and weather. Not sure if I was on a particular TV station website or not so don’t know if I was seeing anything about damage. Also don’t remember seeing anything about a tornado heading my way. I was more concerned with the storm going through DeKalb and Jackson county at the time.

At some point while on the computer, it started thundering and lightning pretty good, so I decided I probably needed to get off the computer. I must have known something was up because I decided to sit in the hallway and listen to the radio. The weather guy was on giving an account of what was going on. Continuous coverage like on TV. I don’t remember what he said. A few minutes into it, the power went out. That’s when I decided to get in the hall closet (for some reason I had cleaned out the bottom of it earlier in the day thinking I might need to hide there later). I wrapped my frog blanket around me and put a pillow on my head. I don’t remember a noise but I’m sure it was there. A minute or two later, I felt the house move a couple of inches. Then it moved a couple of feet. Then the closet wall blew open and I saw what looked like blue sky and those birds kids draw in pictures. Of course, it wasn’t. I’m guessing it was funnel cloud and debris. I got sucked out. The blanket and pillow blew away along with my glasses. I was in the air and then I hit the ground. My hair covered my face. Stuff was hitting me. I was bounce-rolling along who knows what. I thought, “Oh my goodness! I’m outside in a tornado!” I remember hitting the ground or whatever once and hitting my head really hard. I thought, “One more hit like that and I’m gone. Either knocked out or dead.”

I’m sure all of this lasted less than a minute, but it felt like a lot longer. Once I stopped rolling, I think I was on my stomach laying on something. Debris was pelting me. I realized I wasn’t flat on the ground, so I raised up (hands on ground, butt in air). I felt stuff hitting my calves. It felt like needles and hurt bad. But I knew I had to get on the ground so it was just going to have to hurt. I got on the ground, laid flat on my stomach, and covered my head with my arms. More stuff hit me. I guess whatever the funnel cloud was dropping. Then I felt rain and hail (at least golf ball size). I remember it hitting my back and legs. I was somewhere at the back of what was my house.

Once the hail and wind stopped (don’t really remember if the rain did), I sat up. That’s when I realized I didn’t have my glasses. I don’t remember if I tried looking around then or not. I decided I needed to go find someone and stay with them because there was debris everywhere and I couldn’t really see where I was going. I think that’s when I realized that I wasn’t wearing any shoes either. I got up and started walking toward the house that was supposed to be behind mine. It wasn’t. I only got a few feet. My head was spinning and my legs really hurt. I was walking with them bent because it hurt too much to straighten them. I sat down on the ground and that’s when I remember really trying to look around. It was about 8:30 so there wasn’t much light. I looked back toward my house and saw a pile of rubble. I looked toward my neighbors’ houses. Rubble.

It was really still and quiet. Then there was an agonizing scream from the hill across the street. That shattered the quietness. As I sat on the ground, I hollered a few times for help to see if anyone was around. Lots of people were crying for help.

After sitting there for 5-10 minutes, I started worrying that the tornado might come back. Silly, I know, but at the time I was scared. I got up and started hobbling toward the drainage ditch by the road. That’s when I heard voices. I hollered at them and three people came over (only one of them spoke English). One of them was Denine. She was so nice to me. She let me stay with her for a while and helped me stay calm. She also let me use her phone to call Mama. Mama didn’t answer. I don’t remember if I was able to leave a message or not. I honestly don’t remember if I was able to even get a call through.

I stayed with Denine and the other two people for a while. Denine’s family joined us in the road where I sat and listened to what was going on around me. Denine’s house had been levelled, but fortunately her and her family were in the basement and weren’t hurt too bad.

People started walking around checking on neighbors and looking for family members. One man came by and said that some of the neighbors had gathered at his Aunt Melba’s house across the street from mine. A tree had landed on one side of her house but the rest was still pretty much standing. I’m sure it was messed up but I couldn’t see it.

As I walked up to her house, Melba came out to meet me. Even in that scary situation, she was still friendly to me. I asked, “Do you have some shoes I can wear?” She did and went and got them for me. I felt better about walking around then.

I went into her kitchen where some of her relatives were gathered. A woman and two children, I think. The woman had a broken hand or arm from trying to protect the children. The children didn’t seem to be hurt. Maybe some scratches and bruises. I think I talked to them a little but don’t remember what we talked about. They lived next door to Melba. They had taken shelter in their bathroom. That was the only room left standing after the tornado went through.

I sat in Melba’s kitchen for a little while until another neighbor came in and asked Melba if she could use her car to take some people to the hospital. I knew I wasn’t as hurt as others were, and maybe I shouldn’t have, but I asked if I could go with her. She said I could. I really just wanted to get somewhere safe so I could sit down or lay down and rest.

The back window was busted out of the car so I helped clear the glass off the back seat. I honestly don’t know how I managed to stand on my legs or move around in the back of that car. Adrenaline and God, I guess.

I sat in the middle in the back. Norma sat on my right and Lorraine sat on my left. Norma’s arm was broken or something, and I think Lorraine had internal injuries and was definitely in shock. Lorraine’s daughter, Veronica, sat up front. Two men had to put her in the car. Her leg was really messed up. She was also pregnant and was afraid she had lost the baby (she did later). I remember Veronica telling her mother that she didn’t think her daddy had made it. That got me. I felt so bad for them. She told Lorraine about the children that were in the house with them but I don’t remember what she said. I think one of them had a broken bone or two.

We only got a few feet up the road before rescue workers stopped us. Trees were down everywhere and covering the road. Power lines covered the road, too. Thunder sounded and it started raining as Norma and I were helped to a police car by two very nice policemen. I think they were policemen anyway. Maybe they were firemen and were helping us to a fire chief’s car. I don’t know. It was dark and I wasn’t wearing glasses. They put us in the back of the car and drove us to Apison Elementary where a triage center was set up.

When we arrived at the elementary school, I got checked out and it was determined that my injuries were considered minor. They didn’t feel like it to me, but in comparison to others I guess they probably were. While I was laying there being checked and waiting, I was joking a little with the workers around me. I tend to do that when in a difficult situation. Plus I’m sure I was in shock. Before I left, Denine came by to check on me.

I was loaded into the ambulance with Lorraine and taken to Erlanger. I was strapped down on a narrow gurney or something at the side of the back of the ambulance. That was a ride, let me tell you.

Once at the hospital, I don’t remember what happened at first, but I eventually sat down with someone and went through all that stuff you have to tell when you go to the ER. That was lots of fun while I was sick to my stomach, dizzy, hurting, and trying not to throw up. I was then taken into a room and waited to be checked by a doctor.

The doctor came in and we talked about what had happened.

I said, “My ears are ringing and I’m having trouble hearing. Like something is in them.”

He said, “It’s probably dirt so let’s wash them out.”

After he did that, he said, “Let’s try to clean you up a bit.” Then he tried cleaning my forehead. I think he gave up when he realized more of it was scratches and scabs than dirt.

The doctor said other people would come in and do x-rays of my legs, I’d go for a CT scan or something, get stitched up and then I could go home.

I told him, “I don’t have a home to go to.” I think that got him. He really didn’t know what to say after that.

As I lay in the room, the door was open so I could “see” and hear what was going on around the nurses’ desk (I guess that’s what it was). Some paramedics were standing by my door talking about bringing people in from DeKalb and Jackson county.

I asked, “Is it real bad in Jackson and DeKalb?”

They were kind of quiet, and then one of them replied softly, “It’s pretty bad.”

I started crying thinking about Mama, and Stacie and her bunch, Wendy and her bunch. I had no way of knowing if they had been hit or not and if they were okay. I cried for a while and eventually fell asleep. I don’t remember if that was before or after a shot. At some point my legs were x-rayed and I had a CT scan. Other nurses and such came in and talked to me and checked on me a couple of times.
At about 4:00 in the morning, a worker came in and asked if I wanted to call someone. I tried Mama. No answer. I tried what I thought was Stacie’s number but it wasn’t. I couldn’t remember anybody’s phone number. I asked the lady for a phone book hoping I could call one of my school friends. All she could find was a Chattanooga phone book. No Georgia numbers. I remembered that my friend Annette lived in Chattanooga and still had a house phone, so we found her number and I called her. At 4:00 in the morning. The conversation went something like this:
Annette: “Hello.”
Me: “Annette, this is Melissa Camp. Sorry to bother you. The tornado hit my house and I’m at the hospital. When they release me, can you come get me? I can’t reach Mama or my sister.”
Annette: “Yes, I’ll come get you. Call me when they are ready to release you.”
I know more than that was said, but I really don’t remember. It was 4:00 in the morning and I had just woke her up. It wasn’t a really long conversation, but she was concerned about me.

Later in the morning, the lady came back and asked if I wanted to try calling my mom or sister again. Mama still didn’t answer. I tried Stacie again, but changed one number. 996 instead of 997. Got her!!!

•     •     •     •     •

Stacie

The next morning was Thursday. We still had no power. Great, cold shower, no coffee. I did a few things around the house, and drove to the office where I work in Albertville to see how things were there. The storm had missed our building, but there was damage all around. There was no music on the radio. Only stories of the devastation that had hit. My cousin in Georgia began sending me text messages asking if I had heard from my sister. 
“Well, I talked to her last night. She was fine. Why?”
She told me a tornado had hit Ringold, Georgia, and that it was bad. 
“Well I’m sure she’s ok or she would have called.”
She asked what road my sister lived on. 
“Cherokee Ridge, Cherokee Valley, Cherokee-something road.” 
Looking back now, I think it’s sad that I didn’t even know what street my sister lived on.
“OMG I think that’s where the tornado hit. I’ll check and let you know.”
I tried texting and calling my sister. No answer. I tried calling my mom. No answer. I figured their home phones were out because of having no electricity, and their cell phones were dead because they couldn’t be charged. My cell phone battery was getting low too. 

So now my heart was racing. As I sat in my daughter’s living room, my phone rang. I didn’t recognize the number, but I did recognize the area code. It was the same 423 area code as my sister’s number. I held my breath and answered the phone. It was her. 
“Is this Stacie?”
“Yes, are you ok?”
“Is this Stacie Cisco?”
“YES, ARE YOU OK?”
“Oh thank God!”
She was crying.
“Brandy has been asking about you. Are you ok?”
“I can’t believe I remembered your number! Oh thank God!”
“WHERE ARE YOU?! ARE YOU OK?!”
I hear her trying to calm down.
“I’m ok. I’m at the hospital. Everything’s gone.”
I almost dropped the phone.
“Do I need to come get you?”
She cries more.
“Yes, please come get me!”
She’s breaking my heart. I’m shaking, trying to motion for my daughter to get ready and let’s go without panicking.
“Which hospital? I’ll go get Mama and we’ll come get you.”
•     •     •     •     •

Melissa

I don’t think I will ever forget her phone number again! Now I stress to my students the importance of knowing at least 2 people’s phone number in case they need to call but don’t have their phone with them with the number stored.

Around 9:00 or 10:00, a nurse took me to a different room so I could be stitched up. A doctor came in and cleaned and stitched my leg and pinky finger. Those numbing shots hurt worse than the actual stitches!

I called Annette and let her know they were ready to release me. I tried standing up to get in the wheel chair (or go to the bathroom, don’t remember), and couldn’t put all my weight on my legs. Not even bent like I had right after the tornado. I guess laying around for a few hours made them stiffer or something. Anyway, I finally got in the wheel chair and was pushed out to the waiting room. While Annette pulled the car around to the door, a nurse or someone pushed me out to the sidewalk and left me there to wait on her. I knew they were really busy with new people coming in, so I tried not to be irritated. Annette and I had a time trying to get me in the car with me not being able to put much weight on my legs. I’m sure it was a sight for people passing by.

We started off toward the drug store to get my meds and I told her what had happened. While we were driving, a friend of ours called her. Annette told her that she had picked me up at the hospital and was taking me to her house to wait on my mom and sister to come get me. It turns out a lot of people had been trying to find me. I would realize just how many when I got a new phone and heard all the messages. I am loved.

•     •     •     •     •

Stacie

I don’t remember exactly how the next couple of hours played out, but... My sister arranged for a friend to pick her up from the hospital and we were to pick her up at the friend’s house. She would have the friend call me when they got there and give me directions. The hospital was chaos and they were only letting in certain people. I had to go get Mama and tell her. But at this point I wasn’t sure if I could even get through to Flat Rock. I called a cousin, who told me he had been out clearing roads that morning and we should be fine to get through. We took the interstate, since the smaller roads had been declared impassible. I was not prepared for what I saw when we came back across the mountain. Trees, homes, vehicles - people’s lives - were turned upside down. Destroyed. All I could do was cry and pray. And cry and pray some more.

At Mama’s, though, she was calmly going about her day. I’m not sure she knew what lay outside her door, just down the hill from her house. What I had to tell her would shatter her peace.
“Have you talked to Lissa?”
“No, my phone’s dead. Why?”
“She’s at the hospital...
Gasp.
“...She’s ok. But we need to go get her.”
It’s a good thing she was standing beside a chair, or I’m sure she would have hit the floor. She cried for the longest. My aunt called me then. I had to tell her the news too. She cried when she heard Mama crying. I was shaking, thinking “This can’t be real. But she said she’s ok. We just have to go get her.”

Once everything was calmed down and everybody collected themselves, there was nothing to do but wait for my sister to call and let us know where she was. We weren’t doing good at sitting still, so we decided to go ahead and start driving that way. Thankfully we didn’t have to wait long. She called before we got out of the driveway. Her friend gave me directions, and we were on our way - to what we did not know.

When we got to Annette’s house, she took us to the spare bedroom/office where my sister was resting. We didn’t know what to expect, and Annette told us to be prepared. I don’t think you can prepare for something like that. I remember she seemed very calm (it was probably the meds). She couldn’t see us very well because she didn’t have her glasses, but she knew who we all were (me, Mama, my son and daughter). She was laying in bed, covered with a blanket I believe. She was wearing a tyvek jumpsuit. Her hair was a mess, tangled and matted with dirt and blood. She had a big scab across her forehead. She had a bandage and splint on her hand. We could see other scrapes and bruises and dirty spots on her arms and face.

Mama asked her if she wanted to tell us what happened, and she told us. I was amazed she could remember such vivid detail. She was conscious through the whole thing. She told me later she remembered praying while she was in the tornado, asking God to let her pass out before she died; that she didn’t want to be “awake” when she died.

As we got ready to leave, my sister needed to go to the bathroom, but she couldn’t walk. Mama left the room. My daughter and I helped my sister into an office-type chair with wheels and wheeled her to the bathroom. As we helped her out of the jumpsuit, I got a lump in my throat. There was not a place on her body that was not covered in dirt, blood, scabs, scratches, “road rash,” or bruised. I honestly don’t know how her kidneys were functioning as bruised as her back was. I have never seen anything like it.

•     •     •     •     •

The next several days were kind of a blur. We don't remember a lot of specific details.  My sister was pretty medicated and in a good deal of pain.  Mama, I believe, was running on adrenaline, just doing whatever she had to do to take care of her.  And I had to return to my house and family and work.

My sister’s best friend from high school (who we later learned had just spent several hours working recovery - not rescue - with a local Rescue Squad) came and helped her get a shower and somewhat cleaned up. Wendy was a huge life-saver that day! More friends and family came. We tried to shield her from the news stories of the devastation and loss of life. We managed to get her some clothes; we bandaged cuts and scrapes. She was able to move around, at first in a wheelchair, then with a walker, and finally on her own. We made trips to Ringold to try to find anything left of her belongings. I will never forget the look on the rescue worker’s face when we went back the first time. They would not let anyone through without proof they were from the area. My sister simply opened the sliding door of the van, he took one look at her, and we passed without any problems.

The weeks and months passed, and life went on. The outpouring of love and support over the summer was amazing. The miracles we witnessed were inspiring. My sister stayed at Mama’s, and eventually bought her first new house and a new car, and returned to work as a school teacher in August. She had continued to receive medical treatment for her injuries, and eventually had to undergo surgery to remove a piece of wood embedded in her leg. The chiropractor tried, but admitted he wasn’t sure how to treat someone whose body had been through a tornado. Some scars are still visible. Some are not.

It has now been almost seven years since the tornadoes of April 27, 2011. We started writing this story about three years ago, mostly as a way to let go of some of the emotions we experienced every year, or every time a storm came through. Since then we have tried to add an ending to it, but just could never find the right words. We asked Mama if she had anything she wanted to add, some way to wrap this up. She jokingly said, “The End.” (Now you know where we get our mad writing skills.) Then on a more serious note she added, “There’s no way to end the story, because the story’s not finished yet.”

Those words are oh so true. We are not the same women we were “pre-tornado.” Others around our area have similar stories; some have stories much worse. But this is our story. This is how God chose to show Himself to us in our lives. And He became a very real, close, personal friend.

Sunday, November 26, 2017

Thanksgiving

It’s the Sunday after Thanksgiving. I hope you all have had a wonderfully blessed holiday weekend. Whatever your traditions or plans, I hope God was the center of your thankfulness. I thought he was in mine, until this morning. I realized that even though he sent me a gift of calm amid the chaos, He was not my main focus. Oh me, yet again. And while praying for forgiveness, He began to show me things, messages in my reflections over the past few days. I will share a few of them here with you:

✞ You may not know everyone at your table, but invite them in, feed them, and make them feel welcome.

✞ If you’re in too big of a hurry trying to get into the ham (the good stuff), you can cut yourself on the tin foil.

✞ Some of the best dishes come in disposable pans; some come in practical Tupperware; and some come in fancy bowls.

✞ No matter how raw and cut up your hands are from constant washing, the dishes still have to be done.

✞ In the course of living, there will always be messes to clean up.

✞ Just when you think you’ve got everything cleaned up, you spot a Dr. Pepper can in some random place and think, “How did that get there?” “How long has it been there?” And “How did I not see it before?”

✞ All the deals everybody rushed to be the first in line to get Thursday evening, they were still there when I leisurely strolled into the store Friday morning, and from the comfort of my couch Friday afternoon, and even Saturday evening after everything was all over. (God is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow.)

✞ (Don’t give up) Even the dog had good scraps this weekend.

✞ The best way to unclog the toilet isn’t always forceful plunges, but consistent firm pressure.

✞ I will be more grateful for the garbage pickup this week than last week.

✞ We all have the stuff around our house that we live with everyday. But when company’s coming, we hide it away so nobody sees it. And when they all leave, we simply pull it right back out.

✞ On the other hand, we have a few things that mean so much to us that we put them away so they don’t get messed up or broken.

✞ Take pictures; remember the good times. But also be mindful of the not-so-good times and realize where God has brought you from.

✞ Leftovers are ok to eat on...for a little while.

✞ Always thank God before you eat. Thank Him for what He’s given you; ask Him to help you use what He has given you so that you can live better for Him.

✞ Do you “say” the blessing, or do you “ask” the blessing?

✞ I’ve read the end of the Book - my team wins.

I got a spiritual blessing with each one He showed me. You may get something different.

Saturday, October 7, 2017

Right Where I Left It (Him)

I cleaned house today. For the first time in what felt like a really, really long time. It felt good. And, like so many times before, God used that time to talk to me.

For the past few (several?) months I have been pretty busy. Every week when Saturday morning cleaning time rolled around, I had other things to do. The messages from God on those days? “You’re too busy.” “You’re still busy?” “Guess you’re too busy for me today.”

And deep down I knew it. I knew it was not taking time to do some things that needed to be done. But I had legitimate, logical “excuses.” “It’ll be ok just this once.” “I’ll make up for it next week.” “Maybe somebody else will do it.” “Nobody else is doing it, why should I bother?”

And I kept telling myself “when I get passed such & such date,” “when I get this done,” or “I’ve got plenty of time.” Sound familiar?

But today I decided had to be the day to get back to “normal.” The problem? I couldn’t find my music. I have a certain cd that I play while I’m cleaning. It’s a good mix of oldies, dance, spiritual, and some stuff I’m not sure what to call it. This morning I could find every other cd but that one.

So, I found one I figured I could make do with. The first few songs were pretty good. Then there were some slow songs. Then the cd started skipping, then the skipping got worse, and a little over halfway through it just stopped all together.

By this time my brain was clearing (as were the cobwebs and dust around my house), so I went back to the last time I had the cd. It wasn’t in the dvd player (which is where I listen to it while I’m cleaning). I had left it in the actual cd player. So I go to the last place I thought I had the cd player - not there. Now I’m just mad at myself for not putting my own things back where they belong. Stop and breathe. “Now where in the world is my cd player?” And a voice whispers, “It’s right where you left it.”

Wow! That’s about the only way to describe it. Low and behold, in the back bedroom I found the cd player; and inside was my cd. All my stuff was right where I had left it. I was the one who didn’t go back to it; the one who didn’t take the time to make sure all was in order.

I put my cd in my dvd player, cranked up the volume, and proceeded to clean my toilets and sweep my floors. And all is back as it should be.

Monday, September 4, 2017

More Lessons Learned at the Beach

It’s our last day here, and I thought I would share something God showed me our first day at the beach. (I may have missed being in church back home, but God was here with me as well!)

There was a red flag over purple, meaning the water was rough but we could still go in. We just had to watch out for “dangerous marine life.” I tried to keep everybody in view. The girls were closer to the shore with their little girls. But the boys (two 16-year-olds) were out further trying to hit the waves (or rather let the waves hit them). They kept looking to the left and the right and saying, “We want to go over there. The waves are better over there.” I let them venture just a little way, then I would have to call them back over so I could keep a better eye on them. They would complain, but I told them they should enjoy the rest, and their waves would come. And when they did come - boy did they ever!

Now, God showed me these waves as both blessings and trials. Looking all around us, it always seems like everybody has it better, or has something we want. Sometimes we even go and try to get it, not thinking about what’s lying underneath the “wave.” (Red flag = dangerous waters; purple flag = dangerous creatures.) By staying where we are, we can enjoy the lulls and the resting times. And when the time is right, God will send us our waves. And we will enjoy it that much more.

Then He showed me the trials. We may be resting in calm waters, but all around us are waves. The people just a little way down the beach from us were getting hit with some pretty rough waves. For a little while they were ok. But after getting hit time after time after time, they were getting a little tired - physically tired; and just frustrated from the constant pounding, looking for some calmer waters - looking for some of what we had (guess that ties into the blessings too).

Then He showed me something else. As a mama, I wanted to keep my boys safe, in the calm waters. I knew there was little chance of them getting hurt there. But in my heart I knew they would never understand how dangerous some waves can be, even though it looks like fun at the time. They would also never feel the thrill of being hit with a blessing. (Disclaimer here - I never would have let them wander off far, and I was fairly close and could keep an eye on them and/or get to them if I needed to.) I knew they would have to experience the waves (the good and the bad). If I kept them in the calm waters, they would never learn so many lessons. They would never learn to watch and see the signs for waves coming. They would never learn to watch where they are going - too far from the shore, too far down the shore, or into a jellyfish. They would never learn which waves to try to jump over, dive under, push through, or ride out. They would never learn how to balance themselves.

They would never understand how God can create something so powerful and awesome, yet keep it held in place by something as small as a few grains of sand.

They would never learn to enjoy the calm waters.

Saturday, March 4, 2017

Why I Cleaned the House

I believe God will meet you where you are and talk to you in a way that will get your attention.  I don't believe you have to be in a fancy church, praying a long prayer using impressive words for God to hear you.  I don't believe he only speaks to us through a burning bush or handwriting on the wall.  I've never personally encountered either of those things (though it would have been nice a few times).  Instead, God talks to me in the midst of my life, usually while I'm having coffee and reading devotion, or while I'm driving, or while I'm cleaning.

I recorded my thoughts on Facebook this morning -

"My eyes and my to-do list tell me I should be cleaning the house.  My body says I should be sitting on the couch drinking my coffee.  My mind thinks I should go outside or get in the car and just drive.  Trying to find a happy medium to satisfy them all."

Turns out there were several ladies having the same thoughts and feelings as me, and they offered words of advice and encouragement.  I decided I would do a "quick clean," hit the high spots dusting, run a vacuum over the floor, and wipe down the bathrooms.  I figured it wouldn't take more than 30 minutes, then I can be out and on to more fun things.  God had other ideas.

For the next two hours, me and God cleaned and talked and listened.  He revealed things to me through the vacuuming, the laundry, the dishes, the dusting.  I hope you can read past the physical house cleaning and see the spiritual messages He shared with me.

I thought back to years ago and how I always hated to clean.  The vacuum didn't pick up that much.  The broom and mop were dirty so mopping didn't do much good.  The dusting just stirred up more dust, and the dishes and laundry were never-ending.  He reminded me how blessed I am now to have the new cleaning tools I don't mind using.

I remembered how much my husband complained when we first got the new carpet.  "Why do you have to have so many people over?  The carpet's just gonna get ruined quicker."  Well, is that not why we got it?  What good did it do to expand the living room, get new furniture, new paint, and new carpet if we weren't going to share it with others?  The dirt and stains can be cleaned. (That's like buying a new car and not driving it because you're afraid to put miles on it - ???)

When it came time to sweep and mop the kitchen, I thought I would just offer to buy somebody's lunch if they would come do it for me.  Sounded like a simple plan to accomplish the one chore still causes me pain and I don't enjoy at all.  But God very plainly said, "Um, no. YOU have a huge mess piled in the corner of YOUR kitchen.  YOU need to clean up YOUR mess, and YOU need to sweep and mop YOUR own kitchen."  Geesh!  You'd think he was a parent or something!

I decided to reward myself by taking myself out to lunch.  As I sat there savoring my sweet tea, I thought, "With all the options available to me today, with the weather so beautiful, why, WHY did I choose to clean house?!"  God gave me a one-word answer, "Peace."

If I had rushed through my chores and out the door, I would have missed my time with Him.  I would have wandered around all day, accomplished nothing, dreading the thought of coming home to a dirty house.  Instead, I had a calm feeling that, when the time came for me to come home, it would be to a welcoming place.  When the sun shines through the windows, I don't have to worry about seeing the dust floating around.  When I walk across the floors barefoot, I don't have to worry about stepping on anything or tracking dirt.  I don't have to worry about somebody coming over and being embarrassed for them to use the bathroom.  I know that the dishes and laundry are done, that my family will have what they need.  I know that when I go to bed tonight, I will have clean, crisp sheets to rest in.

Now, I'm not crazy enough to think that the house will stay this way.  Life happens, and it can be messy.  Dirt will be tracked through, things will be spilled, the garbage will pile up.   And the baby will laugh, and friends and family will gather, and we will enjoy our supper, and God will be with us through it all.  And next Saturday, we'll clean it all again.

I guess you could say that today I stopped and smelled the Pine-Sol.

Monday, February 6, 2017

My New Ride (part 2)

I don’t mean to just keep on about this, but God keeps showing me things through this whole car-buying-swapping business. Maybe somebody out there can relate or needs to hear it too. I’m not going to try to put it in a story form, but will just put it out there randomly the way it’s given to me. I also won’t try to explain the spiritual lesson in each one. You may not get the same thing out of it that I did, and I wouldn’t want to stand in your way.

• I went into this asking for God’s guidance, but setting my own limits and putting my own low expectations on what I could get. I never expected to get a brand new vehicle - but I guess God saw what I didn’t. It’s on the higher stretch of what I thought I could afford, and it will require some discipline and planning on my part, but it is do-able.

• I looked at and actually test drove the vehicle I thought I would like. But when we got there, it was dirty. It had not been cleaned up much at all. It was loud; it was a lot bigger than I expected (huge actually), and I knew almost immediately it wasn’t for me. I also drove the vehicle that was my #1 top choice. It was fully-loaded, had all the bells and whistles, all the extras, and cost a pretty penny. When asked how I liked it - I loved it! But it honestly had more features that I would ever use. It was too much for me. As my husband put it, "the more gadgets it's got, the more there is that can go wrong with it."

• “What features are you looking for?” Well, I haven’t had any in so long anything would be a step up. A power seat and a radio would suit me just fine. I want to downsize from the minivan, but also want to keep some room and not feel claustrophobic. Done. (Except I didn’t get a power seat, although it is more adjustable than my old one.)

• All the salespeople at the previous dealers we went to were more concerned about “how much can you spend?" and "let me see what I have that fits that." This guy kept asking me “what do you like/not like about this, and why?” He got personally involved. (I’ve talked to some of the others since buying the Jeep and they have not been friendly.)

• I knew the body style vehicle I wanted. I wanted something LIKE an ABC, but I don’t want an ABC because everybody everywhere drives an ABC. I wanted something different, something that stands out. (Names of the vehicles have been changed to protect the innocent lol.)

• I have always loved to drive. It can be very relaxing. When I’m stressed or it’s been a long day, a drive and some good music usually do the trick. When there are times I need to talk to God, but I can’t clear my mind enough to get a prayer out, driving would help clear the thoughts so God could get through. Lately though, I had not been enjoying the drive. It was just getting from one place to another. It was nothing special, definitely not soothing or relaxing, and possibly causing more anxiety (and some days it even smelled bad). Now I’ve got new car smell, a smooth ride, that handles curves and bumps like a breeze.

Sunday, February 5, 2017

My New Ride

My yesterday didn't go quite as planned.  I had to say good-bye to an old trusted friend - my minivan.  The minivan has been a part of our family since 2005.  It has taken us on every family vacation, road trip, visits out of state and local.  It has taken us to church and back every week.  It has hauled groceries and kids and adults, and even some furniture.  It was hard to let it go.
Over the last few years, the minivan has seen a decline in performance.  The paint wasn't in real good shape.  The radio quit working.  The entire electrical system was iffy.  It had an oil leak.  It made a funny noise.  Every time you hit a pothole just right the interior lights would come on.  It was losing gas mileage.  And as we were driving it yesterday, the brakes started squealing.  About the only thing we couldn't complain about was the heat and air conditioning.  It was becoming in bad need of repair.  But it would still crank and run.  It was comfortable.  I knew all its quirks and had gotten accustomed to its faults.  Still I knew the day would come when I would have to move on to something different.
Yesterday we left home with the intent of just browsing a few car lots, test driving some vehicles to see what I did and didn't like.  We knew what we could afford and what overall body style, so we went looking for what was within our limits.  For the first time, I prayed for God's guidance in the decision.
We were at the last car lot on my list, test driving the vehicle I had seen online they had available.  It was NOT what I was looking for.  But the salesman worked with us, letting us test drive other vehicles, asking what I liked and what I didn't like, all while keeping in mind our money situation.  That didn't stop him from letting me test drive the car that, if money had not been an issue, I definitely would have taken home.  It was LOADED.  Even my husband loved it.  But we knew there was no way.  Still the salesman worked.  He asked if we had considered something brand new.  "No, we haven't.  There's no way we can afford a brand new car."  "Let me see what I can do."
Then he drove around the building in a brand new, shiny black, small SUV-type, Jeep.  "Just try it."  So...three hours later we were the owners of a brand new 2017 Jeep Cherokee Sport.  It has a few more perks than we had expected, but it's not fully loaded.  It fit perfectly with what I was looking for.  At first I thought I would be sick.  I haven't had a car payment in six or seven years and, to be honest, it scared me.  But I prayed again and got peace.  Funny how God cares about such things.
As we went through the usual negotiation process, it was decided we would have to trade in the old minivan.  It was not something we had anticipated or even been prepared to do.  We had planned to get another vehicle and bring the old one home.  I didn't even take time to wash it or clean out all the trash.  So, in the end, we left a dirty, floor board covered in junk mail and napkins and takeout cups and half-bottles of water.  We only kept what was useful.
This morning, I drove my new vehicle to church.  We sang some new songs.  And the Lord began to show me some things.  As bad as it hurt for me to let go; as scary as it was to have to pay a cost; it was time, and it was needful.  Sometimes we get so caught up in the old and comfortable, we don't realize it's still possible for us to have shiny and new again.  Everything I had gotten use to being without (a radio, a blinker that turns itself off, lights that work when they are supposed to and only when they are supposed to) was keeping me from enjoying what God had for me.  And I had to leave behind things I thought I couldn't do without.